Avril Lavigne Fan Book

Dear Avril:
Till a certain point, I thought music was just the sound and some lyrics. I thought that until I met you. I realized music is all about expression, all about feelings, all about who I am, who I'm meant to be, who I wanna be. I realized that everything I feel can be expressed in so many different ways. You chose music, and so did I. We do it in different ways. You sing; you play instruments; you helped me building my personality. And I like who I am, because it's genuine and honest and there's nothing I would ever change about myself. I am who I am. And if people don't like me for who I am, that's fine. But I'll never change. I don't want to.
I feel great in my skin. I chose music, by listening to it, and by being my own judge in things I want to listen and in my own life.
I might not be pretty, but that's not the point of my life. My point is to be happy, no matter the circumstances, to struggle when something isn't right. To be myself and never change for nobody. That's the only thing that matters. Sticking up for who we are and never be afraid of showing it.
When I watch people fake who they are just to please somebody, it gets me really frustrated. They'll never be satisfied because they'll never know who they are. And that sounds so bad! People judge everything: the personality, likes, dislikes, the music they listen to, who's got the money, etc, etc. That makes no sense to me!
Through your music I've learned so much. I've learned that I'm not the only one who can't get words out of my mouth. I've learned that even if we're totally in love with someone, but that someone isn't there for us every time, it's not worth it. I've learned to control my nerves when I meet someone incredibly special for me. I've learned that when I get lost there's always someone for us, like a friend, a real friend.
There are songs of yours that make me cry plenty of times. They'll never go old. “Falling Down”, for instance. I really need to keep my feet on the ground and understand that whatever happens, it was simply meant to be.
I'm shaking right now. It feels so right to write down all the things I want to tell you someday, when I meet you somewhere. I really want to thank you. Thank you for being you. Thank you for writing all those amazing songs that make me cry so much. They're a life saver.
I'm listening to I'm With You right now. "Why is everything so confusing?" I mean, that's me. I always get confused by thoughts and feelings. In the end, it only brings me down. Because people aren't who I thought they were. Because people have let me down so much, and so many times.
"You held my hand and walked me home" is one of the other lyrics that make me feel so depressed. It happened to you, and now it's happening to me. "I'm better off alone on any way" for real!
I'm crying and I'm laughing and thinking "She's not reading this!” But still, I'm writing it. I'll never know, right?
Just… thank you for being so great, so understanding, so Avril Lavigne.
Now, there's one thing I want to ask you out of this huge, massive letter…
I live in Portugal. You came here in 2004. They say you didn't enjoy it… Is that true? Anyway, I hope your opinion changes about my country, because… you have so many fans here that never had the chance to watch you live.
I'm 14. I was younger and I didn't know your music. I didn't know music, by the way. I really want to watch you live.
Love, Ana Costa